Why I hate July and People Hate Me in July

Crazy title I know. I'm skipping the Midweek Randoms post because honestly, I can barely form sentences right now. This month, every July actually, is really rough for me. It's been 12 years since my abortion. If you don't know me then you probably don't know this about me. I feel that I'm pretty open about it. I'm not with my family though. I just don't feel like I should tell them. If that day comes then I'll tell. I already feel like this post is going to be all over the place. July is rough. I'm mean. I'm moody. I'm depressed. I cry over everything. I feel bad for Chris and our kids. I just really need this month to go by. I miss her terribly. I can't even imagine what it would be like to still have her here. I would have a teenage daughter. I always try to think of what she would look like. Brown hair or brown eyes? Blonde hair or blue eyes? Dimples? 

I took a couple off from writing this. I'm having a hard time putting into words what I wanted to blog about. But I just can't do it. 

If I could just ask you one thing? Please pray for me. Commercials, tv show, random things are really setting me off. One minute I'm completely fine, excited that I'm going to the Backstreet Boys concert next month (yeah I know, I'm a dork), and the next I'm curled up in the fetal position crying my eyes out. Pretty sure my kids think I'm crazy. Just pray for peace of mind for me. Thanks.

4th of July Recap

Not much happened in the Albrektson household. We are currently battling the ear infection from hades, which turned into the double full blown ear infection from hades!! Poor C has had a rough couple of weeks. The poor man cuts his first teeth in the same week then gets an ear infection. The antibiotic they prescribed wasn't working so now he's having to get shots. 👎 They are so painful too. But it's working thank you Lord. He goes back tomorrow for his last shot then they want us to finish up the other antibiotic. If that doesn't clear it all up, we will be heading to the ENT doc. 

So back to the 4th recap...

We really didn't do much. My kids have inherited my fear of fireworks. L is okay watching as long as they don't get too loud. But A, that girl is deathly afraid! We wet outside after dinner to eat our bomb pops and watch our redneck neighbors light fireworks and she lasted all but 2 minutes. She kept her fingers in her ears the whole time while her bomb pop melted down her arm. Crazy kid! Maybe next year we will go watch at the beach. So 2013 4th was a bust! Hopefully next year will be better. Enjoy some pics I snapped of the kiddos. 

Sick little C. 

Bomb pop hot mess!!

L enjoying his bomb pop! 

Midweek Randoms Albrektson Style

Another week, another post!!

:My little C dude is sick. :( Last Wednesday I said we were in teething hell. Now we are in ear infection/cold hell! My little dude is running a fever, coughing, slinging snot everywhere, and just a hot clingy mess. I hate when they are sick! Thankfully he is sleeping okay at night. Last night was a little rough at first but he finally crashed and didn't wake up till 6:30am and then went back to sleep. 

:C is the new proud owner of two teeth!! Oh, and he bit me while nursing. That was awesome. Broke skin and everything. I didn't think he did at first but I was still sore several hours later so I took a look. Yup. Broke skin. Nothing a little coconut oil can't fix. 

:Speaking of coconut oil... Have you jumped on that bandwagon?!? I love coconut oil and put it on everything. Diaper rashes, sore nursing nips, eczema, cracked heels, chapped lips. You name it I've probably put some on it. ;)

:I really really REALLY want to go to Haiti with our church in December. I've felt the heart tugs for a while but thought that was something I would never do. Well two weeks ago during vbs, our focus each morning was on Cabaret Baptist Children's Home. Everyday the kids brought in money and we collected it. It was for Haiti. Our former youth pastor and his family just moved there and are now the directors. They played a video everyday showing what life is like for the children. I could never get through it without having tears rolling down my face. Those children are precious! I looked at my friend Mandy and said "you and me, Haiti?". She said YESSSSSSSS!!! So the plan is to go. I'm praying. Seeking Gods guidance. The hubs isn't on board. :( The trip is the week before Christmas. We will be taking gifts to the kids. Ack! My heart! I gotta go! Please pray for me. I'll need help raising the money as well. 

:Tomorrow is the 4th and the hubs will be home!! Cookout and bomb pops?! Heck yes, y'all!

:We have cable again!!!! I'm so happy. I've missed TLC!! ;)

:I've really been slacking with my weight loss. I still haven't met my goal of 30lbs. I'm so close. I just have no desire to work out or eat right. :( 

:My kids are so cute! Ha!

:Potty training for L is about to start! I'm tired of changing two butts a day. 

:A is ready for kindergarten. Mama, not so much. 

I think I'll wrap it up now and go for a walk before its gets too hot!!

Midweek Randoms Albrektson Style

Howdy! Welcome to the first (and hopefully not last) installment of Midweek Randoms Albrektson Style.  Here's what is randomly floating around in my head...

: there are days when I so desperately think I want to go back to work full time. I know I know, but hear me out. I love my children and the fact that I'm able to be a SAHM. But, some days I get so overwhelmed that I consider finding a job. :( It makes me ad to even think about that too. Seriously hormones. Go home. You're drunk. 

: My son is crazy about trains! Anything that makes a line he says choo choo very loudly! Even in the middle of Lowes on a Saturday morning. Silly kid. 

: I'm a Pinterest pinning freak these days. I nurse C still several times a day and whenever I do I'm on Pinterest. Right now I'm looking up birthday stuff for C's big first birthday. I'm so excited for his party! I'll do a separate post with all my plans soon. It's gonna be awesome!!

: I feel like I'm still recovering from vbs last week. It was a wonderful week working with the 5th&6th grade girls. I learned so so much. And the verse of the week was MY verse! I know, so God huh? 

2 Timothy 1:7 "For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness but one of peace, love and sound judgement. " 

: I really need a date night. Like ASAP. 

: My baby is starting kindergarten in August. Hold.Me.

: C is cutting teeth! Two at a time. We are in teething hell!!

: And because if teething hell, I've been averaging 2 cups of coffee a day. Last night he woke up at 12:30 with a fever and wanted nothing but boobs and to be held. I nursed him 3 times in 2 hours. I was famished and ended up eating a bowl of cereal around 2am. Awesome. Looks like another week of no lbs lost. :(

I think I'll leave you all with this. There is so much more going through my head but I don't want to bore ya. ;) So I'll leave a few pics to drool over. 

That moment you realize you lost a friend(s)..

Yeah..sucks.

Weekly Weigh In Catch Up

So I've been slacking guys. Sorry. We have had a house full of sickies recently. These weather changes are killing us. L had his first ear infection 2 weeks ago. Then I started feeling like poop with sinus issues. It was bad too! I can't really take much medicine bc I'm nursing C. I ran my first 5k last Saturday and that was the day I felt terrible. (I'll post about the race next) I woke up again yesterday feeling bad. More sinus pressure, a headache AND an earache to boot. I broke down and bought some Tylenol cold medicine. Basically the only thing I can take. I'm praying this passes soon an doesn't mess with my lbs.

Enough with the sickies.. Here's my weight loss updates:

2/2: 3.5 lbs lost
2/9: 1.5 lbs lost
2/16: 1.5 lbs lost

I weighed in yesterday at 174.5! A total loss of 13.5 lbs! Seriously y'all.. I'm so proud haha! I'm shocked that I've lost this much and that I'm sticking to it. My goal is to get in or under the 160s by my birthday. I have 3 months to go. I don't quite know what my final goal is yet. But when I get there I'll be so happy. Until next weigh in...

Weekly Weigh In

(Sorry for the late posts. I forgot to hit publish on my last entry.)

Well here we are again. Another week has passed by and I am still alive haha! I only say that because this new running thing is kicking my booty. It is not easy. In fact its incredibly hard. I'm starting to run for longer periods at a time and man its rough. Just when I get to the point where I think I need to stop and walk , it tells me that I need too. Thank goodness! This week is going to be hard for me to get my runs in. I'm hoping to at least run once or twice. But so far its not looking good.

On to the lbs lost...

I weighed in on Saturday and lost another 1.5 lbs. Not much but I was super happy. I am now at 181.0 and started at 188.0! -7.0 so far which is so amazing! I'm really hoping to get out of the 180s this week. It will be my first time since before A was born. Right before she was born I lost weight and got down into the low 160s. My goal is to be 160 by my 29th birthday. I got 4 months to go. Hopefully I will be successful in my goal. Can't wait to start buying smaller clothes and possibly a two piece bathing suit again. +.=)

Weekly Weigh In

Another week has passed. Weight Watchers is really working for me! I'm so excited about it! I weighed in Saturday morning and I lost another 2 lbs!!! Hurray!!! So that means I'm down 5.5 lbs so far. I can't really tell by looking in the mirror. But people I see keep saying that they can tell. Makes this mama feel good! I'm still training for the 5k. It's going okay. It's not easy. But I didn't think it would be. So here's to another week of lbs lost.

Weekly Weigh In

So I completed my first week of Weight Watchers rather successful I think. I actually lost weight. I mean, I knew I probably would but I thought it would just be a pound or two. I weighed in this morning at 184.5. I lost 3.5lbs!!!! Go me, haha!! ;) I went shopping this morning at my local Kohls (love that store) and bought a new pair of running shoes, two tops, a sports bra, and two bottoms (Capri and long). I love LOVE my shoes. They are really pretty. ;) When I was buying them I figured I would just use them for walking. But my cousins wife asked me I I wanted to do a 5k with her in February. My first thought was haha me run a 5k. Then I thought okay I'll give it a try. I dusted off my Couch25k app and off I went. And I surprised myself. I completed day 1 without cheating or stopping. I won't finish the program before the actual race so I might have to walk a bit. But that's okay. I never would have thought I would be so into getting in shape. But I'm serious y'all! Mama needs to look good! Hubby turns 30 in May and I turn 29. Yikes! I would like to be 160 by my bday. But my final goal is to be under 150. I'm excited. It's not going to be easy. There will be days when I just want to quit and eat a bag of cool ranch chips on the couch. But I'm going to try my hardest and fight my lazy urges. This is the year where I take back my body and get healthy!!

I attached a pic of the new kicks. Ain't they cute?? ;)

Weight Watchers and Zumba

Watch out y'all!! I joined WW and did 30 minutes of Zumba this morning. I told you I was going to stick to my 2013 goals. I'm so excited to start this new journey. Keep checking back to know my progress. I'll keep you updated and be honest.

January 5th- 188 lbs (gasp..I know it's awful to type)

Goals smoals..

So with the new year always comes new goals. Lets be honest, I'm horrible at meeting my new year goals. I usually start out strong then finally crash and burn. This year I'm going to try not to crash so fast. I have so many things I'd like to do/change. Some are pretty obvious and some might surprise people. I'm sure I will add to this list and scratch them off. So here's my 2013 goals...
1) loose baby weight and THEN some!
So actually, I've lost all my baby weight that I gained with C {thank you breastfeeding}. Now I would like to loose what I gained with A and L, haha! Seriously though. I've never ever EVER have been happy with my body. I was a size 0 in high school and thought to myself daily how huge I was. :( Terrible I know. What I wouldn't give to look as tan and young and skinny as I did senior year. I know that getting that "small" is never going to happen again{thank YOU gigantor hips that stretched out to have a baby and freaking refuse to go back in}. I would just like to be happy with myself. I'm down 2 sizes which is pretty fanfrickintastic! So hopefully I will find an exercise and eating plan that suits my (and C's) needs.

2) Be a better mommy and wife
I feel like I constantly am raising my voice at my oldest two. They are amazing kids and I am honestly the luckiest mama in the world but man, they know how to drive ya MAD and grow some greys. I just really want to improve my mama skills and wifey skills too. I'd like to be able to take more time out for me and hubby. While leads me to goal número tres..

3) More date nights with the hubster
We don't get out much by ourselves. Lets face it. Once you have 3 children, people don't exactly run over to take care of this posse. It's no easy task. Believe me I know. But I would like to take time out for us at least once a month. I need it. He needs it. The kids need it.

4) Read more
I use to love to read! I still do but I just don't have the time. So my goal for 2013 is to read 10 books. That might not be much to some but I will say for me, being a SAHM and keeper of this house and busy often, that's a lot. I have no idea what I want to read. So many books interest me these days. Any good books to suggest?? I'm all ears.

5) Get closer to God
So so SO important!! I don't want my relationship with Him to get put on the back burner. And honestly, I can be honest right, it does. Quite often I'm afraid. So this year I want to grow closer to Him. To study His word and to share His love. {as a side note to this one, I'd really like to start sharing my testimony again. Haven't done it in a while and I'm ready to start again}

6) Get organized
Just yesterday I had the kids pediatrician fooled into thinking that I'm organized and have it all together. Haha even now thinking about it I lol! I've never been organized. I'm pretty messy. But this is the year that I will get my junk together and be organized.

7) Take a little time for me
Silly? Yes. Selfish? Sure. But I won't be able to cross off my "be a better mommy and wife" if I don't take a little mommy time out every once in a while. I'm super stressed these days and that scares me sometimes. With L I had ppd because of the stress and I don't want to get back to that dark place ever again. So even if its just a walk around the block alone. Or a trip to good ol Target alone. That is enough for me.

So that's my list so far. I'm actually forgetting a few so check back to what I'll add. And hopefully I'll get crackalackin on this list.

New Year, New attempt at blogging

So I read blogs every day. And every time I read one, I think about how much I want to get this blog up and running. I have tried many times but fail horribly. So with this first day in this new year, I want to become a blogging mama. So here goes..get ready. It might be a bumpy ride.