Why I hate July and People Hate Me in July

Crazy title I know. I'm skipping the Midweek Randoms post because honestly, I can barely form sentences right now. This month, every July actually, is really rough for me. It's been 12 years since my abortion. If you don't know me then you probably don't know this about me. I feel that I'm pretty open about it. I'm not with my family though. I just don't feel like I should tell them. If that day comes then I'll tell. I already feel like this post is going to be all over the place. July is rough. I'm mean. I'm moody. I'm depressed. I cry over everything. I feel bad for Chris and our kids. I just really need this month to go by. I miss her terribly. I can't even imagine what it would be like to still have her here. I would have a teenage daughter. I always try to think of what she would look like. Brown hair or brown eyes? Blonde hair or blue eyes? Dimples? 

I took a couple off from writing this. I'm having a hard time putting into words what I wanted to blog about. But I just can't do it. 

If I could just ask you one thing? Please pray for me. Commercials, tv show, random things are really setting me off. One minute I'm completely fine, excited that I'm going to the Backstreet Boys concert next month (yeah I know, I'm a dork), and the next I'm curled up in the fetal position crying my eyes out. Pretty sure my kids think I'm crazy. Just pray for peace of mind for me. Thanks.

4th of July Recap

Not much happened in the Albrektson household. We are currently battling the ear infection from hades, which turned into the double full blown ear infection from hades!! Poor C has had a rough couple of weeks. The poor man cuts his first teeth in the same week then gets an ear infection. The antibiotic they prescribed wasn't working so now he's having to get shots. 👎 They are so painful too. But it's working thank you Lord. He goes back tomorrow for his last shot then they want us to finish up the other antibiotic. If that doesn't clear it all up, we will be heading to the ENT doc. 

So back to the 4th recap...

We really didn't do much. My kids have inherited my fear of fireworks. L is okay watching as long as they don't get too loud. But A, that girl is deathly afraid! We wet outside after dinner to eat our bomb pops and watch our redneck neighbors light fireworks and she lasted all but 2 minutes. She kept her fingers in her ears the whole time while her bomb pop melted down her arm. Crazy kid! Maybe next year we will go watch at the beach. So 2013 4th was a bust! Hopefully next year will be better. Enjoy some pics I snapped of the kiddos. 

Sick little C. 

Bomb pop hot mess!!

L enjoying his bomb pop! 

Midweek Randoms Albrektson Style

Another week, another post!!

:My little C dude is sick. :( Last Wednesday I said we were in teething hell. Now we are in ear infection/cold hell! My little dude is running a fever, coughing, slinging snot everywhere, and just a hot clingy mess. I hate when they are sick! Thankfully he is sleeping okay at night. Last night was a little rough at first but he finally crashed and didn't wake up till 6:30am and then went back to sleep. 

:C is the new proud owner of two teeth!! Oh, and he bit me while nursing. That was awesome. Broke skin and everything. I didn't think he did at first but I was still sore several hours later so I took a look. Yup. Broke skin. Nothing a little coconut oil can't fix. 

:Speaking of coconut oil... Have you jumped on that bandwagon?!? I love coconut oil and put it on everything. Diaper rashes, sore nursing nips, eczema, cracked heels, chapped lips. You name it I've probably put some on it. ;)

:I really really REALLY want to go to Haiti with our church in December. I've felt the heart tugs for a while but thought that was something I would never do. Well two weeks ago during vbs, our focus each morning was on Cabaret Baptist Children's Home. Everyday the kids brought in money and we collected it. It was for Haiti. Our former youth pastor and his family just moved there and are now the directors. They played a video everyday showing what life is like for the children. I could never get through it without having tears rolling down my face. Those children are precious! I looked at my friend Mandy and said "you and me, Haiti?". She said YESSSSSSSS!!! So the plan is to go. I'm praying. Seeking Gods guidance. The hubs isn't on board. :( The trip is the week before Christmas. We will be taking gifts to the kids. Ack! My heart! I gotta go! Please pray for me. I'll need help raising the money as well. 

:Tomorrow is the 4th and the hubs will be home!! Cookout and bomb pops?! Heck yes, y'all!

:We have cable again!!!! I'm so happy. I've missed TLC!! ;)

:I've really been slacking with my weight loss. I still haven't met my goal of 30lbs. I'm so close. I just have no desire to work out or eat right. :( 

:My kids are so cute! Ha!

:Potty training for L is about to start! I'm tired of changing two butts a day. 

:A is ready for kindergarten. Mama, not so much. 

I think I'll wrap it up now and go for a walk before its gets too hot!!