s.m.o.m.m.. Update

So I guess I can share what was on my mind. I haven’t been feeling well for several weeks now. I wasn’t sure what it was to be honest. I thought maybe it was my ppd {blog post on this soon} or maybe I was coming down with something. But all of a sudden I started feeling…dun Dun DUNNNN…PREGNANT! I instantly started freaking out. I thought how can we do this? Do we have enough money? Where are we going to put this kid? <my poor body being pregnant, again> Chris was cool as a cucumber let me tell you. So I started to feel a little at ease about it. Prayer changed me. I kept praying for peace. I knew that if I was pregnant, that God wanted me to be. That His timing is p.e.r.f.e.c.t. So I started taking tests and they were negative. I called my dr and made an apt to be seen. Another urine test, negative. So she wanted me to do blood work. blek. I hate needles. I just got the results back earlier today. Negative. My heart started pounding when I answered the phone and was still going crazy when we hung up. I felt like half let down half relieved. It was a weird feeling. So where do we go from here? I’m not sure. I still don’t know why I am feeling this way.